Getting water baptized is an important decision. But it's just one of the many decisions that you can make in your journey of faith. For as long as you are moving forward and toward knowing Jesus more, trusting Him more, following and obeying Him more, and serving Him more together with others, every decision you make is just as important as any other. Don't feel guilty that you were not able to make that one important decision of following Christ through water baptism. Perhaps there will be another day. We are not saying that you shouldn't or that you need not go through water baptism anymore. We hope you will someday. But if you continue to open your heart to Jesus, even if sometimes you fail or falter in any step along the way, you are on a journey of faith together with us, and that is the most important thing of all. We (at RLCC) are here to help you experience real life in Christ together with others. Whether you succeed in every step or fail in any one step, we will be here to help you move forward.
What can you do?
First, thank God wherever you are in your spiritual journey. He has brought you where you are, regardless of how you might see yourself in relation to others. In fact, don't compare yourself to anyone. Your spiritual journey is personally designed for you by Jesus. He is the One who calls you and brings into fulfillment His purpose for you. The apostle Paul says in Philippians 1:3-6, "[3] I thank my God every time I remember you. [4] In all my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy [5] because of your partnership in the gospel from the first day until now, [6] being confident of this, that he who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus."
Second, continue from where you are in your spiritual journey. Take the step of faith that you can actually do by the measure of faith that you have. In other words, if all you can do at this point is attend Sunday Worship services, even if you cannot do so every week, just come anytime by faith. God is the One who will enable you to will and to do whatever it is He wants you to will and to do at any point in your journey of faith. Again, the apostle Paul says in Philippians 2:12-13, "[12] Therefore, my dear friends, as you have always obeyed—not only in my presence, but now much more in my absence—continue to work out your salvation with fear and trembling, [13] for it is God who works in you to will and to act in order to fulfill his good purpose."
Third, keep focusing on Jesus. Don't focus on yourself or your failures. He is the Author and Finisher of your faith. He will guide you as you follow His way. Soon you will understand the truth and the truth will set you free. But for now, as the Lord guides you, keep your eyes on Jesus, even though you might struggle at times. Know as much as you can about Him. Read the Gospels repeatedly (Matthew, Mark, Luke, or John) and imagine yourself in the various scenes. Tell Jesus about how you feel or what you're thinking as you imagine yourself in the stories. Don't worry if you cannot understand everything. You can ask questions. Turn them into prayer and ask Jesus to help you understand. Then leave it that. Let Him enlighten you in His own way. He will do it because He is faithful. The author of the Book of Hebrews says in Hebrews 12:1-2a, "[1] Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, [2] fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith..."
Fourth, don't give up too easily. The Lord allows trials and testings to train you. They are not meant to stop you from following Jesus. Satan may try to do that during such times but don't let him. He is a defeated enemy and he is only trying to deceive you. Keep trusting in Jesus who is your Savior and Lord. He is also your Shepherd, and He will guide you. Stand your ground and remember that Jesus will never leave you nor forsake you. The apostle Peter says in 1 Peter 1:6-9, "[6] In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. [7] These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith—of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire—may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed. [8] Though you have not seen him, you love him; and even though you do not see him now, you believe in him and are filled with an inexpressible and glorious joy, [9] for you are receiving the end result of your faith, the salvation of your souls."
Last but not least, find a soul friend or friends. It is much better to take this journey of faith with spiritual companions. Look for someone or several people, like a small group, who may be ahead of you in the journey. They can understand what you are going through and they can empathize. Just share your honest self with them. There is no need to pretend that you have it all together because, most likely, they also don't have it together. They are fellow travelers with you and they have their own struggles as well. Of course, it will be good to find good examples among those who follow Christ and imitate their faith. Even if you cannot imitate them perfectly, do so as much as you can. You will learn a lot when you do so. The apostle Paul says in Philippians 3:17, "[17] Join together in following my example, brothers and sisters, and just as you have us as a model, keep your eyes on those who live as we do."
In Conclusion
Even though you were not water baptized, it doesn't mean you are no longer part of our journey of faith. We invite you to continue with us in this journey. You can do so by thanking God that He has brought you where you are right now, spiritually speaking. Just continue from where you are. Ask God to help you to keep moving forward. Keep focusing on Jesus and not on yourself. Even if you fail or falter sometimes, He will lift you up so that you can continue the journey. Don't give up too easily when you experience various kinds of trials. That's part of the journey. You are being trained to become like Jesus. Last but not least, find spiritual companions. You need them to accompany you on this journey. We are with you and we will help you. Don't be discouraged.